Missionary moments are a thing.

Confirmations from Heavenly Father on what you are supposed to do are mostly subtle drop of the hat hints....

and sometimes they're blatantly obvious, smack you in the face, "why are you even asking me this again" answers.

Here's a little background. 

          6 months ago, I became a member of the one true church on this earth, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I knew from the time that I was baptized, that I would prepare to be called to serve a mission. I know I have a strong testimony, and I know that I need to share it with everyone that I can, whenever I can. This Gospel of Jesus Christ is the truest thing that I have EVER known, and I can say wholeheartedly that IT IS TRUE! Lately I have been having some doubts on whether I should serve a mission, even though I have received the answer countless times that I am to serve as a full-time missionary. I continuously pray even though the answer is the same every time, "I am to go, and I am to serve, for I will be a blessing unto my fellow man." It doesn't get more clear than that, but yet I still doubt. I doubt that I will be able to teach people and bring the right message that they are to hear because I am so knew at this myself. Constantly I'm reminded of the Holy Spirit and if you stay worthy to have that companionship, and you stay in tune with the promptings that It brings, you don't have to worry. 

          So anyways, I pray ever morning and night for missionary opportunities and lately, they haven't been coming. I thought I was doing something wrong or I wasn't reading my scriptures enough or I wasn't praying hard enough for them..well I went to apply for my passport today, (just in case I get called to a foreign mission), and the people working asked where I was going that I needed a passport. So I immediately told them, "WELL, I'm Mormon and I'm preparing to go on an 18 month mission for my church!" This opened up a whole shebang of questions of where I was going and what I was going to do, I stayed there well over an hour longer than I would have had to..but the Spirit is super good at preparing me to get put on the spot, when I'm least expecting it. 

         Heavenly Father knows what we need at every second of every day, and if we are faithful to Him, He will fulfill those needs in an overwhelming, under-appreciated, much-more-than-we-deserve way. I cannot recount all the blessings that I am given on a daily basis and I know for a FACT that it has a direct correlation to trying my hardest to live a Christ centered and temple worthy life. Which brings me to another thing, PRAY WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT FOR THOSE MISSIONARY MOMENTS. Be worthy to carry the Spirit and head the promptings, you never know who needs to hear your message that day. They may be small, or they may be huge but NO MATTER WHAT, you are planting seeds in the hearts of many! 
        "Missionary work is the lifeblood of the Church and the lifesaving blessing to all who accept its message. At this time in your life, a mission call from the Lord, my young friends, is the most important work that you can do. Prepare now, live righteously, learn from your family and Church leaders, and come join with us in building the kingdom of God on earth—accept your divine appointment in “so great a cause." This quote by Ronald A. Rasband from the April 2010 priesthood session of general conference explains to me why I need to pray for opportunities to share the message of eternal families with everyone that I come across. It also speaks to me about the way I should always be living my life; righteously and ready to learn so that I, MARIAH ALLEN, can accept my divine appointment in this great cause of missionary work.